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Awkward!

The other day my students were playing at their L.A.F. (lunch activity fun) time before lunch.  I was having an intellectually stimulating conversation with one of my kids... Anyway, I'm feeling so great about how cool and interesting my students are this year and began walking back to my classroom to eat.  As I was walking, one of the adults outside grabbed my arm and pulled me in close.  I don't remember the exact words that were uttered, but it was something like, "Don't feel like you have to answer this, but when are you going to start a family?" This woman and I have had conversations, back when I was much more 'in the closet', about how much I was enjoying just being married and how excited we were to have a big family someday and that whenever it happened, it would happen and we would be beyond thrilled.  This answer clearly bought me some time because she hadn't asked me this question in almost a year probably.  Since I am out with my inf

While in limbo...

Right now, Josh and I are forced to be in limbo.  As I am still having side effects from my miscarriage, and because my doctor's are making me take a break to heal and restart my cycle, he and I cannot move forward with anything fertility related. Hence, I've been doing a lot of pondering lately.  I went and saw my therapist (yes, I see a shrink...I think you would too if you'd had a year like mine).  The last time I saw her, I showed her my ultrasound pictures showing a healthy baby so needless to say, we had a lot to talk about.  One of the things she always asks me, because she completely understands what type of person I am, is how I am taking care of me.  My initial answer to her was that I honestly didn't think that I was taking care of me.  Then, something dawned on me about the way I can handle my current situation better. I (and Josh too) have sacrificed and changed our life a lot to be able to handle all of the fertility stuff.  Our lives get planned aroun